THISISJOHN

there is this prevalent
winter cold here
a definition of this town
this is what drives me
makes me wander and breathe, at all
i like to get so close to it
to be in it's almost-grasp
then hold my breath,
stop time right on the clock
and linger there
in between a heartbeat

that's when i feel
close to a home
i've never known
and its scary
like drowning
or passing out
and i lull back
into reality
with even more questions
and less gratitude